went to the dental clinic ytd.
was scared stiff but had to be brave.
got three jabs of anesthetic.
it was painful but endurable.
while waiting for my mouth to numb
i was with my parents n meiniang outside.
then my da jie came.
haha she came to give me support.
it was very sweet of her.
finally my turn to go in!
sitting on the chair tryin to relax.
but actualli already start to tremble~
dunno if is becos of the cold or the fear.
mummy wanted to pei me throughout.
but the dentist suggested her to wait outside.
well, im alone!!!
scaryyyy...
then the dentist trying to be funny and ask me if i have any fav singer so to have their songs played to me.
well i cant think of any of that during that time!
it started.
i closed my eyes.
wondering what's coming.
then started to feel something in my mouth.
but no pain
then all sorts of noise came.
drilling.
sawing?
digging.
plucking.
cant realli differentiate.
well i dun think i can hear any songs if there was any.
i felt pain twice during the surgery. once was at my lower jaw.
i guess he pressurise my vein when tryin very hard to pull out the tooth.
then next was when he trying to sew up the wound during the second stitch.
OMG~
just think!
u can feel the thread~!!
when it pierced through ur gums.
almost fainted.
tears came falling down uncontrollably
i was scared stiff.
wondering what's more pain to come.
it was realli scary.
as some pain u cant feel. n when u start to be able to feel some.
OMG words cant describe it.
the whole process was a hell for me.
imagine u need to stay awake throughout that.
physical n mental TORTURE!
i guess what really get me through the process was that i know my family is outside lending me their courage and support.
im really glad i SURVIVE through.
hahaha.
but worst has nt come.
my ignorance.

oh ya.
when the surgery was over.
my mummy and da jie came rushin in.
along with meiniang PLAYING PSP!!!
then my dearest mummy n da jie started to cry.
omg~
they made me cried.
i felt as though i was a baby in their eyes.
and i did feel that i was a baby being care for by them.
they were in pain too.
seeing how much i gone through.
i guess my bloody face scared them too~
hahaha.

then my family ESCORT me back home.
we went home by taxi.
AND THE TAXI DRIVER SUCKS TO THE END.
will update u all next time.
scare later make my blood boil and hurt my wound.

home sweet home.
thinkin that the worst was over (which definitely was not)
i layed on bed.
trying to rest from the trauma.
the anesthetic had not subsided
so i waited.
OMBG.
the pain was like elevating.
i tried to make it within my control.
tried to tell myself that the pain would be over soon.
but it was definitely not the case.
it started to swell and the pain was excruciating.
nothing could be done.
i tried to eat the painkiller.
which seemed to have no effect at all.
i tried to endure which made me going nuts.
i broke down.
i just kept crying.
i really wanted to let myself faint.
which i tink will most probably happen if i allow myself to.
but seeing my parents were lik sooooo worried
n my mummmy was like cryin so hard.
i told myself to pull through.
it was helpless.
no doctor can help me.
many clinics were closed.
those that were still opened said that they could not do anything.
as i just had my painkiller which was told that it was the strongest among its kind (i certainly dun believe. as the effect is not convincing at all)
they told my mum...
i could only wait~~~~~~~~~~
the feeling was beyond words can describe.
so was the pain.
it was really helpless.
everyone was trying to do sth.
but they couldnt.
it was just me.
only me could do something to myself.
but i realli had no idea wad could be done.
other than just enduring Enduring ENDURING...
the pain was really beyond wad i could stand.
my whole body was numbed bcos of the pain.
my spine and head were hurting like hell.
four hours crawled (what's slower than crawling?)
then one of the clinic's nurse called and told us ice could help.
well, it don't really help much.
but at least it make me feel hopeful but not ______?
eventually the ice made my cheek less swollen (though it still looked lik a pig head, so just imagine the worst case)
an hour passed.
my parents took turns to help ice my cheek.
i was touched.
i could feel the coldness when it was on my cheek on and off.
just imagine how cold can it be when they were lik holding it for an hour?
they love me truly much.
and i love them as much too.

i had my second medication and by then it was like 12 ++.
i only started to fall asleep at 1 ++ ( the pain was still on)
when i woke up in the mid of the night.
i almost fainted again.
there was a small pool of blood on the pillow.
i tot my nose bleeding came bac.
but it was not!
i drool BLOOD.
i have difficulty swollowing my saliva all day long.
as it was hurtful each time i tried swollowing.
so i guess i din managed to swollow my saliva when i was asleep.
GOSH my face n shirt n neck were all stained with blood.
god damn it!
stupid wisdom tooth.
brought me enuff trouble n fear n shock n wadever it can be.

now i am like a pig typin all these.
dun believe? can take a look of my photo taken.
it definitely very much look lik a half side PIG HEAD.
my ugliest moment.
feel lik dying when i realised that i need to go to the dental clinic later.
everyone will see a pig head floating in the air.

see how much a wisdom tooth can bring for me.
nonetheless, i still realli treasure this experience (although it was DAMN, FCUKING, GOD DAMN IT, of all Vulgarities still couldnt describe, PAINFUL )
cos from this experience i know how much they love me.
and how much i should love them back.

shldnt left this out.
my dearest meiniang (though she was still playin psp when my surgery was over)
she took great care of me as much as she could.
though she is just 8 yrs old.
but her love n care really touched me much too.
mei you bai teng ta~


thank you mummy, i love you much much much.
thank you daddy, i love you much much much.
thank you da jie, i love you much much much.
thank you meiniang, i love you much much much. (i bought her new slippers that morning!)
no thank you for brother n liyee.
so very not nice of you two.
better watch out when i recover.

ok la. thank you my KAH LAI too,
stop staring at the screen ya.
hahahaha.
thanks for coming.
deeply appreciate it.
though u did gain sth for coming.
u manage to see how pig head i AM!!!
gosh. no image le.


till next time~ ( my kah lai's phrase, copylefted)