it kip set me to think.
what will turn a person lik dat.
izzit of bad childhood?
lack of love?
i dunno.
but i realli feel lik doin sth for him.
i guess he is realli feeling miserable inside.
that's why trying to cover himself with those unreal stuff as self protection.
i guess he's been thru too much too much hurt.
i cant say i understand.
cos i believe if is realli hurt that turn him lik dat.
the hurt mux be more than words can describe.
thinkin that he may hab gone thru a period of time
when he was so helpless.
so needed for help n love.
yet he cant reach it.
yet no one is there for him.

im nt angry anymore.
i start to feel sad.
i start to think abt wad can i do for my part.
i will pray for u.
i will do wad i can do.
leave u with peace.
try to let others understand.
no matter wad happen.
u are still loved
dun blame ur friends.
i do believe that if they understand they will love u too.
i sincerely hope that ur wounds within ur heart can b healed.
the world is nt as bad as wad u think it is.
there are still pple who care.


i love my family.
i love them for being so understanding.
for showering me with love.
and this set me to think.
not everyone is as fortunate as me.
may god bless you.

cant slp.
still tinkin abt those stuff.
but sth makes me ponder...
he dun nid friends at all?
during that time when we chat..
he dun treat me as a friend?
i dun understand.

im utterly disappointed after knowing all these.
i feel insulted.
i feel angry.
i feel sad.
as i realli treated him lik a friend.
chat with him abt stuff.
sharing my thinkings etc.
and respect him.
as i feel that everyone deserve respect unless they forsake it.
i guess he chose to forsake it.
wad i regret most is that i was chattin with him heart to heart lik towards a friend.
but i can nv believe wad lies beneath.
i dun understand his behaviour and way of thinkin.
i guess he realli nid some help
i feel lik pity him so much.
n especially his parents.
u r nt god.
but u do need god to bless u.
n save u.
i did once care abt u.
truly n sincerely.
but tis time im realli hurt.
but i still hope that one day u will turn better and treat friends truly n sincerely.
and of coz with due respect.
sayin pple stupid, will not make u smarter..
describing pple as lowly human, will not make u a god either.
i will get my friend to pray for u.
god bless
you


thx for those who realli care abt me. =)