well here's the post...
but it's gonna be a sadded one...
cant help it..
fate made it tis way..

expect the unexpected...
tis pharse is familiar?..
yea...
i learnt it today...
trying very hard to stand up once again by myself...
but aint ez...
trying very hard to balance my lifestyle...
aint ez too...
too many happened recently...
well u may ask AGAIN? duh~
ya again probs surfaced...
one after another....
fate~
family is burdened dwn financially bcos of my whole family's medication fee..
every family member fall sick one by one..
few have yet to recover..
one nid to go for long term treatment.
another may hav the risk of havin undesirable outcome...
im worried..
but i cant do anything much than earnin money...
im not money minded...
i jux nid the money...
trying to balance my sch work n my job..
i failed..
it's my mistake...
i nid to try harder..
by myself...

im very tired...
these three days it's not ez...
money is hard to earn..
my legs are feeling sourly painful every now and then...
spider veins kip appearing and spreadin...
the legs are ugly.
i even start to tink stop wearin skirts and shorts...
i feel lik cryin...
im a girl too...
which girl will want her legs to b lik tis...
but i tell myself...
sacrifice is needed..
nt tryin to b noble here...
jux wanted to confide in here..
cos i can find no one...
things are too complicated too...
now wad else can i do other than trying even harder?

bless me.
please.