things got better between us le =)
im glad..
i hope that things will get even better. =)

one more assignment to go.
after assignment will b tests n exams...
sianx...
BASHYA !!

i luv my family =D

i feel that i dunno anything about her at all..
am i a failure?

feel lik cutting my hair...
haha...
whenever i feel sad or bothered with problems..
i jux feel lik cutting my hair....
lol
anyone been to heatwave salon before??
feel lik tryin that salon...
sounds gud lol

recently i bought a hamster...
it's white in color...
and its ears are special...
one side is grey and another is white...
so ke ai rite~~
LOL
her name is xiao pearl~
*smile*




trying hard to adapt to reality

well here's the post...
but it's gonna be a sadded one...
cant help it..
fate made it tis way..

expect the unexpected...
tis pharse is familiar?..
yea...
i learnt it today...
trying very hard to stand up once again by myself...
but aint ez...
trying very hard to balance my lifestyle...
aint ez too...
too many happened recently...
well u may ask AGAIN? duh~
ya again probs surfaced...
one after another....
fate~
family is burdened dwn financially bcos of my whole family's medication fee..
every family member fall sick one by one..
few have yet to recover..
one nid to go for long term treatment.
another may hav the risk of havin undesirable outcome...
im worried..
but i cant do anything much than earnin money...
im not money minded...
i jux nid the money...
trying to balance my sch work n my job..
i failed..
it's my mistake...
i nid to try harder..
by myself...

im very tired...
these three days it's not ez...
money is hard to earn..
my legs are feeling sourly painful every now and then...
spider veins kip appearing and spreadin...
the legs are ugly.
i even start to tink stop wearin skirts and shorts...
i feel lik cryin...
im a girl too...
which girl will want her legs to b lik tis...
but i tell myself...
sacrifice is needed..
nt tryin to b noble here...
jux wanted to confide in here..
cos i can find no one...
things are too complicated too...
now wad else can i do other than trying even harder?

bless me.
please.

2am now...
my eyes are still widely open...
jux cant force myself to slp..
alot of tots surfaced in my mind...
browsed thru my hp picx and video....
haha...
din noe that i still hab that video inside...
i miss the past...
wher angel was by my side..
wher my xin fu was with me...
i dunno why i always make myself regret...
always make the present worse than the past...
i miss that smile..

late in nite...
wher silence filled the air...
i feel so alone...
the feeling is especially intense during the night...
when everyone is asleep except me...
staring into the darkness...
thinkin and reminiscing about the past...

onli left four hrs to slp..
but i doubt i can slp...
sigh...
i miss her........
so is she?

my life isnt in a whole piece..
sth is missing....
what is it?

没有期望就不会有失望
i seldom see myself hopin now...
i no longer hope for my angel to b by myside....
i no longer hope that my prince charmin will appear...
is it becos i fear to hab disappointment??
it's happenin subconsciously.....


am sorry...

我似乎了解我在你的心目中是怎样的人
可能又是我的错吧
我只想忘记
我不会再像今天一样
你不会再面对任何麻烦
我觉得今天的我真的像一个大傻瓜
就好像是在人们的面前夸自己美
其实自己就是一个又笨又傻的丑八怪

我更明白了
“没有人需要对你有任何责任”
这句话真的好现实

我真的好失败
因为我需要用三年的时间才可以真正了解你
对不起
我一直都把自己的想法放在你身上
我真的好自以为是

我不会再这样下去了