tix time..
it's too hurtin...
it hurt me too much...
im been tryin hard to b better....
yet i deserve tix....
wad did i do wrong..
wrong to b emo?

realli feel happy after receivin the hp accessories...
treasure it so much that i try to handle with care...
lookin at it i would smile....
cos it's sth frm him....
after the break up...
been tryin to see how shld i change myself to b better...
thinkin tt there may b one day i can b with him again....
feelin satisfied even onli sms him sometimes in a day.....
i didnt expect much...
i jux feel contented...
i jux wish to cont likin him.....
today i feel emo...
i jux wan to tok to him...
i realli dunno wher to go....
i didnt noe that tis would make him misunderstand me...
it realli hurts...
i didnt expect anything...
i cant...
i dun hab any rights to...
cos i noe im onli his friend..
im clear abt tt...
but why did him want to think abt me tix way...
knowin that cont b friend with him onli bring him sadness...
i realli wan to convince myself to let go....
he misunderstand again....
i nv wanted to let go....
that msg hurt me so much...
mayb all along i deserve all tis...
yea...
i nid to learn...
i nid to learn to let him go...
i was so afraid to see his msg...
so afraid that his msg would hurt me...
i dunno wad did i do wrong again...
i didnt expect anything frm him..........
i realli didnt....
i start to fear....
start to fear loving someone....
cos it's realli very painful...
my heart is stabbed...
bleedin...
too much~~~~~~

too hurting le...
i realli cant take it...
i nid to let go.....

i lmn u
tis will b the last time...